挫折???

My chinese star never recoverT.T just can write title T.T
i think it's enough for me...better than get nothing right?

Firstly, start my topic with a sigh> HAIZ!!!
All is about the result!
juz a few subjects ok ok...
others all cannot see wan T.T
only one subject the mark is start with the number 9 something. no! it's exactly 90. no more than that...hell! that's moral...never expected. i thought my definisi will wrong cz i read it last minutes...phew~~

my language subjects all die jor!!! BM really cnt get high marks cz our teacher really strict. I can accept. BI 70, till ok ok loh.......all this i dy ready for that result,so i feel nothing. but........ my BC! Really hurt...the language i like the most! only gt 64 T.T My confidence for tis subject almost collapse dy... The essay really bad, damn bad! the lowest mark for BC in my life...T.T T.T

Science subjects not bad lah...Bio is weaker compare to chem and phy...
math deduced two mark .....add maths many careless mistakes... my maths ok wan loh...can get 80+++dy very gud due to my bad habit> careless!

the most kek subject>>> sejarah! teacher din mark my 3rd essay! and gt many points he din giv marks for struktur and esei...geram!
nothing to say dy...suck!
the range 59<×<91

it's still far frm my target...this is d most sad thing...distressing......
希望越高，失望越大。(yeah, C.star works!)

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As long as i still grab it tightly in my hand, certainly not to let it goes...
It can still improve...
rite?

Rush

Juz finish typing lisan-forum. Keep rushing. huuu.....finally done jor, i let low do some ulasan then i print. haiz...this is d result of wasting time and dragging lo......
wad a bad student i am...=.="
Tmr sure sleep in class wan~~~T.T

Hmmm.....
After school reopen, i can't online and write blog so often jor...
Sien........
Everyone very down lo...holidays over dy...

[hope my chinese star will recover! i want to write in chinese!]

总结

Holidays already come to the end. Soon, the school is going to reopen, kinda sad T.T My holidays!!! Haven't enjoy enough! sob sob!
Actually, this is the most meaningful holidays to me though. Cz i went through many things in this two weeks...Really...but i am not sure whether it's good or not.
The first day of our holidays was the singing competition that vy important to us(who gt took part last year)...I never had that kind of feeling before for a competition(could affect my mood so much!), maybe it's because we put many effort on it and our team members did countless sacrifies...it's the brigde of our ship....friendship...haha! I gt some lessons from this competition...i think most were mentally...i know what is betrayal, dissapointment,being hurt by words, how to take care of someone,how to control our own emotion, how to see something from different view and finally share the happiness of success when our hard works had paid!yeah!
This will be the last time i join chorus and it was the best time! Thx you all! muackssssssss

After this, i had a good time out with friends...that was girls day out and gila anak's birthday.......haha! really enjoy the time hang out with friends...relax! i like it! I hardly spend time with friends this year...what a stupid, idiot busy year...so irritated...everyday filled up with homeworks, activities, tuition.......arrrhhhh....i gonna become insane dy....haiz...
Hey, my friends! luv u all soooo much!!!!!!!!!! I like my Xiiao gang! Feel safe and cheerful with u all... muackkssssssss


Then, was the camp...Hmmmnn....damn good among all the camps i had joined...the most unwind camp. I knew how to lead a group of people and it's harder than what i think before...luckily low giv me wu long tea...worthful though it seems like being cheated=.= .......This camp should be the modal for other camps ...I make friend with many excellent person...haha! Hey, you guys really funny man! It's easily to mix with them though we came from different state...hmmm......


I start to do the 壁报then...we six person a group...everyone really did it spiritful knowsss? keeping staying up at night to finish it coz we hope we can gt prize ma...especially km loh......and guess...what we get in the end?
I don't feel like want to talk about it, if not our members sure annoyed! hahaXD
we do bring back something...but........haiz..........whatever lah!!!!!(immitate cass) wahaha! So dissapointed!!!
First time i saw police caught people at jonker when we wait for the result...wakao! 2 times at the same place... first one was a psycho, i tink he drunk and behave badly...second one was an indian.The people gt knife u noe? and d police showed his gun toward d people...(show off huh?)
jonker is not suitable for us!!! too crowd!!!scaring


Hehehe! i able finish new moon jor......wow! that book really fascinated! clap hand! pla pla pla! ^^
gonna start eclipse...hmmm....gud idea!

today is the last day of holiday, i planned to hang out with maggie...just two of us...at first we all planned to go out at friday wan...but,coz of me and prince they change to saturday night...unfortunate, i informed by km that the 详和夜placed at the same day same time!!! gosh! so, maggie change to today lo...coz of this, mian gt angry and many ppl cnt go...T.T sorry! u all dun nid to change wan...juz enjoy ur day without me, maybe it will be more quiet. LOL!!!
Thx maggie(for needing me so much! LOL!!!but i think u should learn how to berdikari jor...)...sorry mian and the others....T.T i feel vy guilty and......touched!!! tmr we go play clothes ya...haha!

This holidays im mentally sick and tired...cz i really went through many type of thinking, feeling, emotions. (c d bold words up there and count)

i don't thonk u all will understand what i tried to say...nvm...it's gud oso=.="



《从高处跌到谷底，在从谷底返回高处。那是的情绪是难以形容。那种波动，真的很累。这是我放假的心情。》

I should be happy or sad for this kind of experience? appriciate the experience or feel sorry for those whose care me?
dunno!

吵

四周的声音好吵！吵！吵！
只想静静地带在自己的世界里…
自我封闭…
让我静下来好吗？
什么都不想听…
什么都不要想…
不管，不在意，不在乎…


寂静的四周只剩下我的呼吸声，心跳声。
这是我的世界…

嘿

闷闷的感觉，好像要“吐”东西出来。可是不懂是什么。＝＝

无言

我们很幸福。
我有个小学朋友现在住在雪兰俄，她寄了封信给我！
她就读的学校是间不好的学校，每天都有人打架。
她还亲眼目睹过一个学生用粗粗的东西打另外个学生的头，而且当场流血。
过后警察车就来捉人…
还有她学校三分之二的人有纪律问题………很多很多………
那里的生活不像我们这酱自由，每天就只有补习！
她补习好像比我还多酱。
信里，她还说很想去自杀！天啊！
她信里的一字一句都是那种失望又迫切的语气。
她很向往我们这的校园生活。
我唯一能做只是做她的聆听者………好无助………
她以前帮我很多下的。。。
小时候笨笨给人欺负也是她帮忙出头的。
如果她没转校去那里就好！
我小学最好的朋友咧～～

我们真的很幸福，身边至少不会常发生那种事。
学业、老师都比他们好很多……
学会珍惜吧！

朋友，加油！

guess what's that?

I think it's quite blur........and.........disgust! wahaha! snapped by web cam=.="
yesterday sparring kena "oh che" lo....haha!
first time gt injured like this...erm...quite happy!=.=" i am weird right? haha!
that's me!
haha!